This is an excerpt from the novel “Confessions of an Abortion Addict.” The novel is still in progress and this excerpt might not be sequential and will be subject to additional editing. Please provide feedback. Thank you!
The room was a vacuum of white static. A giant corridor in a hospital except without the smell of disinfectant; it smelt more like a perfume counter of a department store. This is the beginning of your new life. There are other would-be actresses that Virchow, has lured with a promise of fame and stardom. The other girls come in different sizes, but they have the same age: under 30-ish. Old man craves young flesh. Practicing lines, pouting lips in Vanity Mirrors, Refreshing make-up and they have brought with them the dreams that are about to be realized. I adjust my yellow dress that I’ve worn after my agent’s continuous pestering and pleas to look presentable.
I have my hair down, from what I can see in the mirror at the opposite end. It looks matte black. My skin also feels darker because I didn’t feel like going too heavy for the make-up. I’d really don’t like being here too, but my agent insists that ambition is the key. You have to make things happen.
“I love the yellow you’re wearing, it really compliments your skin tone,” the girl next to me says.
“Oh, Thanks!” I said, and it took a moment for me to realize that she was talking to me. No one had said a word to me this entire afternoon, except for maybe verifying that I was on the audition list. This girl was very peculiar; for one thing, everyone had come with portfolios, their bags and of course they were all dressed to reflect their own particular set of assets. While she was wearing a low-cut, plain white tee, black leather vest with spiked studs, a multitude of scarves and accessories, on a skinny frame with a heavy dose of mascara which made the blues on her eyes feel piercing. “I love your get up too,” I try to mirror the compliment but it might have felt a little insincere due to the long pause.
“Ha-ha, please, don’t lie. I know I’m underdressed, but my agent forced me to come here,” she gently strokes her serpentine red hair.
“That sounds awesome—you have anything else lined up?”
“A couple of things. Plus, I’ve not heard anything good about, Virchow. One of my friends was telling me that he makes the girls take off their top and chooses them based on the color of their areolas.”
“Really?” I replied. Don’t listen to the competition, June…she just wants to see you walk out that door. “Don’t get me wrong, he doesn’t have a very sparkling reputation, but that’s low— even for him…just out of curiosity what color does he prefer?”
“Apparently, he really likes nipples to complement the rest of the breast, so they become camouflaged.” She says in an indifferent tone. “I have darker nipples anyway, so I’m already out.”
“No offense but if that’s the case why don’t you just walk out right now?” I ask her with a bluntness that I didn’t even know I had in me. Yeah, tell the truth.
“Well, it’s a rumor, and in this day and age everyone makes up their own rumors. I just want to see who is bullshitting me, right?” She says that without blinking. “Oh, by the way, my name is Sally, Sally Chrysler. Not like the car, please don’t make that joke— I probably should change my last name— anyway, you can call me, Sly. You might remember me from such classics as Prairie Shark, Wendigo: the awakening and of course Who brought the lumberjack on my fishing boat, eh?”
“Ha-ha,” I couldn’t help but chuckle at her, it was a little difficult to keep pace with her thoughts. “Hi, Sally…urm…sorry, Sly. I’m June, June Husk. I’ve also only been in Canadian Movies, mostly. I did some stuff with Tcherkov, but as it was pointed out to me by my Agent, for me to ‘make it’ I have to go to Hollywood…well nice to meet you.” I palm her hand and she goes for the cheek-to-cheek, and we end up in between a low hug and front-on spooning.
“Nice to meet you too, June. I can’t say, I’ve seen you in anything…but you look familiar but here’s hoping this is your big break.”
“I hope so too,” I said with a heavy sigh. There is a long moment of silence between us, and the long gap is filled with Sly’s intermittent whistling.
“Hey, once you’re done do you wanna go out for a couple of drinks?” She says in her pattern of blurts.
“Umm…I have to be somewhere after, but we can go out sometime later this week.”
“Great, by the way, it wasn’t meant as a date or anything—hmm…I just like to you know network a little bit.”
“You really are awkward aren’t you?” I replied, smiling back at her.
“Yeah, you noticed?”
“Yes, I did,” we laughed, and for a moment we forgot that we were sitting in a hallway filled with anxious starlets.
“June! June Husk!” A voice bellowed.
“That’s you…go! go!”
“Thanks!” I leaped up, pirouetting across the rows of starry-eyed, doe-faced hopefuls. She gave me an air kiss and stuck her card inside my purse in a flash. I swore that I heard her say, all the best, as I rushed towards the assistant who called me.
“June Husk…nice name.” He said holding a clipboard close to his chest.
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Confessions of an Abortion Addict
© A.R. Minhas 2017
Dear A R Minhas, on your writing, I am captivated by it, moved, deeply. I so love how and what you are writing of. May I say to you that in my life, I have precipitated by my actions, and then positively endorsed abortion of the person I loved most. in the end it was the beginning of the end of us as a couple, something to this very day I suffer greatly for. I suffer not for the medical termination, but for my termination as a loving partner, I have been alone and celibate ever since. This was one of a number of parts of my life that led me to extreme self harm, not suicide to end it all, but self harm to remind me how I hated myself, how I failed and how atypical I had been. it has taken many years, but now I just try to love. simple and effective. I hope…
Thank you so much for that response, Gary. I truly appreciate it and thank you so much for sharing with me something so personal to you. I can’t even begin to imagine what you’ve gone through and I know that decision wouldn’t have been an easy one. Never the less, I wish you the best and please don’t give up hope and please keep sharing the love. I know for a fact that your blog is one that I always check regularly. Please keep on fighting, my friend! 🙂
thankyou, that is very kind of you.
I think I have hurt myself for the last time. I have only three things now, honesty, love and great foolishness. After the last cuts are healed, I will never go topless, after the end of time, I will still be foolish, but never wear watch. Upon a round planet, rainbows are always perceived according to ones perspective, like people see (their) gods. I truly thankyou. A.R. Minhas. love your works.
Beautifully put my friend. We have to find the beauty in our lives and I’m glad you are doing it. Your support and encouragement means the world to me. Thank you!