Because You Were Close To Me

I think my body has developed a cure for you.

I no longer crave your touch.

And you are just a text message away.

And yet I think,

When you were closer to me

Death was not an issue

Because you were close to me

I felt validated by your soft lips.

I wasn’t a phantom. I was just another oppressed worker in love.

I miss not feeling that way,

Sometimes

And then I thought about surrendering to you again.

And then my anti-bodies kick in.

They remind me about the last time.

The vulnerabilty of opening up.

Maybe, someday I’ll open this rib-cage again.

Maybe, I’ll become sick again.