I have ruined the self
It was to you I owed that debt
& it was to you that I held onto
“Kill me, Beloved!”
My self doesn’t trust you
It has been lost
Somewhere
In the blue overtures of night crawlers
Reminding you of their eternal blindness
The self finds itself a starry night to behold
& smoke dangling on its own
Freckled with spidery legs
The Ether a container of forgotten scents
& the self can’t stare at you long enough
It grows tired
& it bends
I have ruined the self
& I can’t trust it anymore
“Kill me, Beloved!”
Maybe my Yellowed bones
Gave it away
The kiss I drew on you that night
& displayed for fortuities sake
The love that was borrowed
The love that was taken by no one
& it is no ones…
It is for Myself
& only to Myself
& it is not owed to
Nor does is it belong to
So kill me
If you’d like it back
© A.R. Minhas 2016
